in this world, stand a lady with a perfect image like her god. she's been so bless-fully gifted with a loving parents, sisters and maybe a few nice friends around her.
since she was little, she always wanted to be super hero, jumping here and there just to prove that what superman, batman and spiderman doing is real. but as time goes by and now she is matured enough to understand that these superheros are nothing but a total joke and fantasy. how stupid she must felt when she know this. total stupid!
she always dreamt of being someone who is influential in her surrounding and with her history of politician generation from his father's side, had turn to be a caring person.. caring for the needy and being nice to everyone cause she had learn that world peace is very important to live in a harmonize environment.
she lives one of the houses in an urban place. with beautiful stray dogs that she had taken care since little.
currently she is declaring her solitary status.. even though it is just a day off but at least, she is free from commitment.
all this while, people look at her as a sweet person but she is just as bad as everyone.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
a guy
dearest guy,
i promise not to repeat my mistakes but i did. i realize that i had made a lot of it. so now, here im asking to end it once and for all.
i never have the intention to hurt you but i guess you are better off without me.
from the very start of our day together, i really wanna prove to you that i could be the best for you.
But every time i try, you discourage me with your looks and attitude. it pisses me off totally.
though, im thankful to meet a gentle guy like you.
your patience really attracts me. its totally unforgettable.
all the present that you gave me, thank you so much! i will always keep it as a remembrance.
well, this is the end. the relationship between me and you.
even though i know, i feel that there's still some love in my heart for you. im sorry that i need to put it away because i don't want to risk another of your precious chance to be with someone who is total jerk for you.
so here, i wanted to do a statement that i dont belong to you, you belong to someone who can really treat you well. .
i wish you all the happiness and im very sorry to all the wasted time you spend with me. she deserve you better than me. thank you once again. you have no regret to leave someone like me.
god bless you always. we will always be friends.
i promise not to repeat my mistakes but i did. i realize that i had made a lot of it. so now, here im asking to end it once and for all.
i never have the intention to hurt you but i guess you are better off without me.
from the very start of our day together, i really wanna prove to you that i could be the best for you.
But every time i try, you discourage me with your looks and attitude. it pisses me off totally.
though, im thankful to meet a gentle guy like you.
your patience really attracts me. its totally unforgettable.
all the present that you gave me, thank you so much! i will always keep it as a remembrance.
well, this is the end. the relationship between me and you.
even though i know, i feel that there's still some love in my heart for you. im sorry that i need to put it away because i don't want to risk another of your precious chance to be with someone who is total jerk for you.
so here, i wanted to do a statement that i dont belong to you, you belong to someone who can really treat you well. .
i wish you all the happiness and im very sorry to all the wasted time you spend with me. she deserve you better than me. thank you once again. you have no regret to leave someone like me.
god bless you always. we will always be friends.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
a man
dearest man,
i cant stop thinking about u. i cant stop dreaming about u. everywhere i go, your face seem to get stuck in my head. are we meant to be? i know we are over in term of our relationship but im so bless that we are at least still friends. reminiscing our previous moments was beautiful but i end it all cause i couldnt take the responsibility to fix it already. i should have gone slow with the break up process but i didnt. i wanted to regret all the action i've made but i guess i shouldnt. i'm taking that as one of the solution to let you be happy, find your self being a man and also experience all the beautiful moments being as a young man before you commit yourself to a marriage.
meeting back with you on that day was one my joyful time, maybe you cant see it clearly but it is all felt in my heart. thank you for still treating me good, and i realize you did improved and fix something somehow in your self.
so this is our promise, i dont dare to email anything to you cause i dont want to disturb your mind, feeling and your education.
however, i could only browse through your pictures in my computer box. i know that you are currently happy with some girl who i understand is a really nice girl. i wish you all the best. i dont know how we'll be ending up our future but i will always wish you happiness.
honestly, i'm kinda jealous cause as time pass by, i wish to be by your side, wanted to experience all the your sad, joyful and hard moments but im here and you're there, we are far apart.
its hurt to see your profile especially when uninvited face is being place on your prime page. well, im just an ordinary human that have weaknesses inside. :)
this journey somehow teaches me about my selfishness and the ego attitude as i mistakenly understood as a person who dont want to be look down on and my happiness is more important that anyone else.. so right now, im am going to learn slow about this negatives and try to accept thing as they are.
dearest man,
i dont want to burned your self about me. i know we have promise something but i wish it didnt effect your decision in life. be happy.
though, im still hoping something somehow.
i cant stop thinking about u. i cant stop dreaming about u. everywhere i go, your face seem to get stuck in my head. are we meant to be? i know we are over in term of our relationship but im so bless that we are at least still friends. reminiscing our previous moments was beautiful but i end it all cause i couldnt take the responsibility to fix it already. i should have gone slow with the break up process but i didnt. i wanted to regret all the action i've made but i guess i shouldnt. i'm taking that as one of the solution to let you be happy, find your self being a man and also experience all the beautiful moments being as a young man before you commit yourself to a marriage.
meeting back with you on that day was one my joyful time, maybe you cant see it clearly but it is all felt in my heart. thank you for still treating me good, and i realize you did improved and fix something somehow in your self.
so this is our promise, i dont dare to email anything to you cause i dont want to disturb your mind, feeling and your education.
however, i could only browse through your pictures in my computer box. i know that you are currently happy with some girl who i understand is a really nice girl. i wish you all the best. i dont know how we'll be ending up our future but i will always wish you happiness.
honestly, i'm kinda jealous cause as time pass by, i wish to be by your side, wanted to experience all the your sad, joyful and hard moments but im here and you're there, we are far apart.
its hurt to see your profile especially when uninvited face is being place on your prime page. well, im just an ordinary human that have weaknesses inside. :)
this journey somehow teaches me about my selfishness and the ego attitude as i mistakenly understood as a person who dont want to be look down on and my happiness is more important that anyone else.. so right now, im am going to learn slow about this negatives and try to accept thing as they are.
dearest man,
i dont want to burned your self about me. i know we have promise something but i wish it didnt effect your decision in life. be happy.
though, im still hoping something somehow.
Monday, May 26, 2008
dearest world, i have fall in love with you. with all the beauty that you possessed makes me fly high. However, recently im so sad with the earthquakes and tornado, it killed many people and makes life harder to live when someone who they depend the most died just like tht.
i must have been lucky to stand on this soil which is a bit far from that situation. i couldnt imagine my life without my loved once. though, regrets is always a regrets.
i must have been lucky to stand on this soil which is a bit far from that situation. i couldnt imagine my life without my loved once. though, regrets is always a regrets.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
one heart for two guys..
im in the state of destroying myself with all this emotional im going through. having a love feeling for these two guys and i just need to STOP!..
i love my boyfriend that's one thing but i am also still in love with my ex. but me and my ex knew for sure that the past is over and now we are friends. no matter what. well, thank god for that cause i just cant accept if we are enemy after all the love making thing we did. gosh. weird.
believe me that my boyfriend is so unpredictable, i thought he is a guy who give up easily on me but as many trouble making i've committed, he is still here with me, giving me that chances that i dont want and still support me to stop and have faith in me i can change my attitude. unbelievable.
however, i understand and i respect that my ex has the freedom of choice. :)
but honestly im still jealous. well, stupid me.
however, i should be thankful that my boyfriend still love me crazily even after all the mistakes.. well not everybody is round and perfect..
i love my boyfriend that's one thing but i am also still in love with my ex. but me and my ex knew for sure that the past is over and now we are friends. no matter what. well, thank god for that cause i just cant accept if we are enemy after all the love making thing we did. gosh. weird.
believe me that my boyfriend is so unpredictable, i thought he is a guy who give up easily on me but as many trouble making i've committed, he is still here with me, giving me that chances that i dont want and still support me to stop and have faith in me i can change my attitude. unbelievable.
however, i understand and i respect that my ex has the freedom of choice. :)
but honestly im still jealous. well, stupid me.
however, i should be thankful that my boyfriend still love me crazily even after all the mistakes.. well not everybody is round and perfect..
hate me for me
hating everything is just what i need now. i just dont understand my life now. i feel so useless and weird. eveything didnt fall into what i fantasize.
and 100% im currently killing myself with all my past moments and no one can save it but me and god.
and 100% im currently killing myself with all my past moments and no one can save it but me and god.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
go to hell.
who can you really trust in this world beside your family, when you seriously think someone who is so good to you betrayed you secretly?! honestly having bestfriend is sucks after all. go to hell.
I'm so sad and hurt when this thing happen to me. i always thought she is always the great one but ya, once again people that i take as the most closest one to my self, have actually been masquerade as this helpful, nice lady to a BITCH!
welcome to the real life.
Well i should have understand that not everyone is a goddess. I my self is not a goddess too. sad! well i guess, bailing is much easier than stressing about this matter that i have no power to change anything. let it be.
I'm so sad and hurt when this thing happen to me. i always thought she is always the great one but ya, once again people that i take as the most closest one to my self, have actually been masquerade as this helpful, nice lady to a BITCH!
welcome to the real life.
Well i should have understand that not everyone is a goddess. I my self is not a goddess too. sad! well i guess, bailing is much easier than stressing about this matter that i have no power to change anything. let it be.
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