i admit it is hard to move on. i could only bring myself to take very small step ahead. my heart is frozen. the gate to my love life is temporarily close. i have no intention to be with someone else at this very moment. i don't want start and don't even want to create another sweet memories. my life is under-construction for now.
however, i know its no fair that i am still hang on with the guy. while, the man has understand his part to be general with each other.
i admit our conversation just now is hard, pain and long. though, its worth to bring it up again to at least we could updated with what we are trying to fix all this time.
its true we cant fix a broken glass that the pieces is all over the place. forgive and forget. its like a round shape trying to fit a square shape together. even if we can't be together, i'm here and we will always be friends.
i always imagine that i could be happy with myself being solo, have a great career&life, beautiful in and outside and surrounded by my beloved family and loyal friends.
though i wonder when can this be happening when i am always stubborn and keep on making mistakes and create problem. i don't want my life to be strict-ed by a man and a guy guard side by side me. i still want my freedom but in a Christian way and also i still want to be loved. i have very few loyal friends or should i realize it by now that i don't even have any. pity me.
my next major plan.. well, end of this month, we are going to start with the business plan already. gosh, i haven't even start yet for the proposal. i need a black and white to prove this business is a serious matter. wish us all the best.
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